So here’s something that’s been on my mind for the last couple of weeks…Instagram! I’ve really been going through a phase of just feeling really stuck on the thing! One way that I get a lot of traffic to these little scribbles is via the old ‘gram, I use it to promote my work and to be honest it usually works pretty successfully. But, lately I just really haven’t been feeling it.
Once I’m out of the routine of posting on my TTR Instagram I find it really hard to get back into it! ‘Who cares?’ I already hear people saying… to be honest probably very few people, but it’s not really about other people here. I think it’s something that a lot of us deal with and that’s trying to be ourselves online, I want to show my creative side online, promote my work and have a cute, colour themed outlet but I also don’t want to have the pressure to do that. And as soon as money or work or promotion gets involved, for me anyway, that pressure comes thick and fast!
Some weeks I see Instagram as creative and other times it’s constrictive. Sometimes I get a thrill after a day of taking pictures to choose the nicest to present to the world through my little bubble of a page, other weeks I find the pressure to fit a certain content style, colour and feed theme absolutely exhausting.
I find a break away from Instagram so needed and enjoyable but there usually comes a point when I’m ready to get back on the band wagon and start sharing again. This is when I go to post and then second and third guess myself. It’s kind of like when you would go back to school after the summer holidays, there’s usually a lot of catching up to do but most of your classmates went to Bali and you’re just not really sure if you want to give them the opportunity to judge their resort to your soggy camping holiday in Scotland.
Now, none of my old school friends did go to Bali on their holidays, and I have very fond memories of family camping holidays in Scotland but the whole comparing, comparison and being the best is very year 9 and we should all know a little better by now.
The most ridiculous thing is that, as we already touched on before, no one cares probably. Which is what makes this situation even more ridiculous. From seeing top curated contant online I, and a lot of people around me I think, feel like we have to also produce that top content. The pressure we put on ourselves is actually aiding us censor ourselves, doubt ourselves and restrict ourselves from being as true and authentic as we want to be.
So how do we let go? Not just of the instagram fear but the fear to be anything less than perfect and settle for just being ‘normal’ in a world saturated with Insta level content? I guess it’s one step at a time. It’s easier said than done to admit flaws, to not care about where we are in comparison to where other people are and to let go of that mother-ducking colour scheme but I’m pretty sure slowly but surely we’ll all get there.
Interested to hear what you think.